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I have noticed how easy it is for me to say, “I can’t” because I am afraid that I can’t.  A whole lot of things remain undone when I slip into that sort of thinking.

The most recent instance of this has to do with a brochure that I wanted to get done.  I am starting a group called “Write Your Spiritual Autobiography”.   I want people to know that I am doing this or, obviously,  I won’t be doing it.  With my spiritual mind, I wholeheartedly believe the saying, “Build the field and the people will come”.   But my human mind counters truth with thoughtless and idiotic comments like, Who are you kidding?  You don’t know how to do this.  People will never pay for it.  It won’t be any good. And so on and so on.  Forget that I have credentials up the wazoo and that God is in charge.  I just get doubtful.  And that is part of the human condition.

I try to put my fears aside and proceed with the brochure.  I have Microsoft Publisher on my computer.  I open it up and stare at it.  I decide it is written in Greek or Chinese.  I can’t possibly make sense of it.  I head off to Barnes and Noble to check out books on using this program.  After 45 agonizing minutes, I finally make a choice and go home to figure out what to do.  Well, maybe I should read it first.  I go over and over the very few pages that have to do with creating a brochure, feel overwhelmed and quit.

A few days later, I was telling a friend about the problem.  She told me she had a great program for making brochures, and she showed me how easy it was to use.  I obtained a copy of this program, opened it,  and I was immediately swamped with the same confusion as I had experienced with Publisher.

I believe that confusion is a feeling that serves the purpose of keeping us from making decisions we don’t want to make or taking actions we don’t want to take.  Confusion is paralyzing, and I am convinced it is fear-based.  So the question I must ask myself is What is my confusion about?  What am I afraid of? Surely, it is not just whether I can figure out the computer program.  No,it had much more to do with the fears I mentioned before.  That is, Am I actually competent enough to be of service to others through the facilitation of this Spiritual Autobiography group?

What to do about my paralysis?  Take it to God, of course.  Wasn’t this His idea in the first place?  Why am I getting so ego- involved?  Have I forgotten that “Of myself,  I am nothing.  The Father does the work.”?  I have this wonderful bit of scripture engraved on a piece of wood and keep it hanging on the wall above my diplomas as a constant reminder of the true order of things.

Just after I begged Him for help, I was reading an article that was metaphysical in nature.  Through this writing, I was reminded that God is within me.  If I allowed the Holy Spirit  to think and express through my heart, He would.  The next day when I opened the Publisher program, I affirmed  with deep belief  God within me will create the right brochure so that I can proceed in doing His work. The fear left me and,  amazingly,  I was able to figure out the previously mumbo-jumbo computerese.  It took a few sessions and a question or two directed at my computer literate friend, but my mind was cleared and the task got done.

Does confusion ever block your good?  Has anxiety ever kept you from trying things?  God can always help.  Share your stories in the comments section.  Or, if you have any questions about things you are facing, ask away.  I will answer your requests.